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  • David Foster (shown here with his friend Gracie) is National Strategic Advisor for Morris Communications, and has been a leader within the independent magazine community for years. In April 2005, Dave was diagnosed with Advanced Renal Cell Carcinoma, Stage 4, the sixth deadliest cancer, behind lung, liver, and breast. In emails to his ‘wellness group’ of friends and colleagues, Dave began chronicling his battle with the disease. In this blog, Dave Foster continues to “kick cancer’s arse”, sharing his story with a wider audience.

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October 23, 2007


Hey Dave! Don't be so hard on yourself! I think it is only human to have "bravery meltdown" now and then. Had a severe case of it myself the last few days...even the uncarved pumpkin on the counter turned into a malevolent cancer cell! You're going along fine keeping up the bravery and attitude and then...boom!! Suddenly you wake up one morning.. either a warrior or knight and find yourself standing alone on the front line of the battlefield in your underwear... devoid of armor and sheild! Geez that feels bad! A few anxiety attacks later and some deep breathing and all you know is you got to get that armor back because it sure feels crappy without it!! A good honest talk with your dog helps. It will pass and this trip is going to do wonders for you!
Hang in there!


Don't feel bad because you are whining Davie..heck, most of us complain over the simplest things. You have earned the right to whine whenever you feel like it. Feeling tired is very common with RCC, and I can appreciate how one minute you may be lying down and the next ready to go on that hike. My husband feels much the same way. Someone might call and ask how he's doing and I'll say "he's really tired and lying down now resting" and then five minutes later, he might be driving up the road looking wonderful to everyone else. So I've learned to realize that with cancer, every day is unpredictable. Let's factor in the reasoning though that maybe you are feeling more tired now because of the time of year. Fall can make us all tired with the darker mornings, earlier nights, less sunshine and for the most part, just dreary weather. We have had rain just about everyday now for the past two weeks! I'm yawning as I'm writing this message. Sunshine gives everyone more energy and just being able to go outside in warmer weather gives us that boost. You never rest David as I know you are always busy providing great blogs for us to read, as well as your travels into the great outdoors for your hunting expeditions. You give all of us a boost by sharing your personal stories, so don't despair my friend, you are a true wonder in the way you continue to forge ahead....Take a nap when you need it, enjoy the trip next week, whine whenever you feel like doing it, but most of all, stay "positive"! Remember, you are not alone in your travels, and you have a great support system both at home and on this blog!!!
Take care my friend,

hey dave- this is harry weisenberger's daughter again, heidi. every night i get my 3 kids in bed at 7pm and i check work email and i read my dad's caringbridge guest book and then read your blog. it is a new ritual for me and a sad one! tonight it hit home with me when i read your comment about wanting your life back. my mom and dads life is so out of the norm for them and has been for 3 1/2 yrs. we all want his life back to the way it used to be- we are sick of it! i am meeting them tomorrow morning at the mayo clinic to find out about the option of surgery- it is a big day for all of us. we are ready to kick RCC's arse! thanks for your insight on kidney cancer and living with it! p.s. i had hodgkins in 1993 and i successfully kicked its arse- you can too!

David you have every right to "whine". You certainly have all the empathy you need from Joe and I. I say "good luck to the Doctor" tomorrow is "anger" stays with you. Oh well that is the docs job - have a problem, FIX IT or darn well do thier best trying. Hang in David tomorrow is another day. Let us know how you make out.

Maybe it's the time of year but I feel the same. The kids all came home over the weekend to witness my 52nd birthday ... we stayed up way too late watching the Red Sox and I finished my 5th cycle on Sunday. Lots to celebrate, but I feel like I got hit by a bus. The last week I hardly ate anything, loss of taste is one thing but then I got a side effect I had avoided up till now. Let's just say I wouldn't be thinking of a drive like your's because I can't venture too far from the toilet! Man was I lucky the 1st 4 cycles. This morning I woke up with a cold. This should be an interesting off period. Hang tough my friend, we could all have it a lot worse.

Hey Big Dave you have every right to whine now and then. Hell man, I'm 56 and if I could I would go to my mother and just put my head in her lap like I did as a kid.
It too shall pass my friend.

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